I finally got it. This is not yet what you think it is but you need to have this kind of "it" It will help you, you will believe in yourself and good things will happend sooner or later.
About four days ago I did my mirror and written affirmations. I have been doing them over a year. I got some success and some set back. Sometimes I was so frustrated that I felt like crap and sometimes It felt like "I have it, I have now figured it all out"
But four days ago I felt something amazing. It is not a feeling. Feelings are like music. They will come and then leave. Just let go bad music. It is understanding. When I was going to sleep, I just understood: "Yeah I am incredibly sexy man." I felt it. I can feel it now. So it is not just a feeling that will disappear.
Some good things have happened. I got lot of eye-contact and a woman approached me. But I do not care about "results" I am sexy man no matter what, now I can feel it. I will believe in myself.